Short update... not really.

_{Thanks for the 20,000+ page-views by the way.}
It's only been a month since I last wrote a journal so I'll just drop a newer one for you guys. I've been acquainted with new friends on Xbox LIVE (including one that works with Microsoft and Bungie Studios) whom is super awesome in not only his job but his funny personality and how we call each other brother and sister now. I have five half-brothers and one half-sister and neither of them had talked to me as much in my whole life as this Director has in the past few days (and nights). It's nice to feel like a family or be a 'part' of one in some way. Ha, I have family problems.
Also, in no way have I been watching any videos on YouTube to keep me posted on how Markiplier, PewDiePie, ChaoticMonki, etc. is doing and what new videos they have to share. About fifteen minutes ago did I just finish watching Markiplier's walk-through of the new Outlast update of "Outlast: Whistle-blower" which was AMAZING.
I'm sad that nowadays I can't bring myself to watch their videos or ANY videos anymore... it's not that I don't like them; I suppose time has finally caught up to me and I can't live that "teenager" life that I couldn't have. In short, I just feel like that I missed out on so much and there's no way that I can make myself change that even though I have the possibility to do so. But people tell me that I act childish to continue playing video games and watching YouTubers, etc. All I just want to do is feel something that I wished I had in the past. Not everyone can have that childhood where you can play video games and watch funny videos. I stopped watching videos in hopes that in that itself, it would make me a better "adult". It doesn't; it just reminds me of the solitude life I had before and there's nothing new or interesting in that and I feel as cold to people as if I was that concrete child that couldn't bear a simple smile.
Anyway, after finishing that walk-through, I felt so much better hearing Mark talk and see his funny reactions and I couldn't thank him enough for being the same Markiplier that I had remembered him to be before I stopped going on YouTube altogether. New videos, same person. He's such a great guy.

This journal was somewhat a tiny bit longer than I had planned it to be, it happens. On another note, there might be some grammar errors; please tell me if there is a mistake. I'm tired and I just want to end this journal soon.
As for myself, I'm doing well you guys; at least I will try a little harder to make this smile a little more real.
You bros take care until I come back, alright? Later.

~Noir